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Sunday Matters: Strange Place

Sunday Matters

I am in a really strange place right now. After my mom’s passing, and all the other stuff that came with it, I find myself in this weird limbo stage where sometimes I am incredibly happy, and other times (not sad) but anxious. I feel all wound-up.

With the holidays and all the holiday traditions we have as a family, I can almost forget about my immediate problems. I see the tree and smile or I get excited about holiday reading with a warm, holiday drink by my side.

But then, it all comes rushing back to me. Reality. Life is hard sometimes.

Right Now:

I’ve got my cup of coffee and the sunlight is streaming through the window. It’s so pretty outside. COLD. For us, but pretty. We are about to head to church.

This Week:

December came up fast! This week I have two holiday parties to attend: the book club holiday party and one that a colleague throws every year.

Reading:

After my mom’s passing, it took me a long time to pick up a book. However, reading is like a tonic to me so I forced myself to begin again and sure enough, it’s calmed me in ways that no glass of wine could.

I finally finished Summer of Night. It was such a large book and parts of it were classic horror but it dragged in places. I still have to write the review. I am currently reading Commonwealth by Ann Patchett and I really love it.

Watching:

When your life seems like it’s spinning out of control, TV can be a comfort. I’ve watched SO much TV. I’ve watched old shows like Bob Newhart (so comforting) or several episodes of The Wonder Years. I’ve watched dark shows like Black Mirror and holidays classics like Frosty the Snowman. As you can see, anything goes in the TV department right now. I still haven’t experienced The Gilmore Girls yet. Is that a show my daughter and I could watch together?

Making:

I did cook for Thanksgiving but it was a weird day. Everyone was home, which was good but I could not relax. I’ve been making stuff here and there since I had the time off but now I am back at work for a little while and back to wondering what to make. What sounds good? I saw someone post a photo of Rib Eye steaks and lobster tail. Now, that sounds great to me.

Grateful for:

I am grateful for my friends and the many people who have reached out to me in some way over the past two weeks. You guys are the most awesome people. I’ve read every single message and card and some of the things you’ve said have literally brought me to tears. I am so grateful for you.

Me, Right Now

Me Right Now

Hello, all. Just thought I’d stop by to let you all know what I’m up to.

Not much.

I’ve been reading a thickish book and it’s taking me longer to read it than I thought it would (Summer of Night). It’s good but it’s slowing me down and my other reading is taking a backseat because of it. There are so many books I want to get to right now.

Also, I’m adjusting to having a college aged kid. He works a ton of hours and when he is off, he goes to school so we hardly see him. I was horrified to learn that he might have to work on Thanksgiving. Thanksgiving!!! Our day of PJs is in jeopardy. It’s like a very different world right now and it’s weird.

I find myself in this pensive mood lately. Quiet. Thoughtful. Pensive. Everything seems to have meaning to me. It’s a tad exhausting to be thinking all the time but I’ve been doing it. Maybe it’s my age. Maybe it’s just THAT time of year. It’s not a bad place to be in but time slips away from me and before I know it, another week has passed.

And, for whatever reason, I’ve lost all craving for meat. I seem to only want vegetables. This happened to me in my 20s and that led to a vegetarian, sometimes vegan diet for a good three years. Will it happen again? I wonder if it has to do with my iron levels being normal now.

That’s basically it. Things are good and quiet but different. How about you? What is going on with you right now?