For whatever reason, I started going through old profile pictures of myself from last year and it surprised me how much I’ve changed and not in a good way. I could be the poster child of “letting yourself go” which of course gave me pause and made me rather sad. Both physically and mentally, I am spent. After twenty minutes of wallowing, I perked up and decided that all is not lost. I can refocus if I choose too and so that is what I shall do.

I probably won’t make sweeping changes but I will focus on small ones for now. I purchased some new kicks so that I can start walking again. My legs have sufficiently recovered from the fall in May. I still have numbness in one leg but it’s a lot better than it was.

I have to be more careful with what I eat. I have been had a couple of gluten cross-contamination issues which causes me all sorts of problems so I need to be much more careful in the area of preparation. Once you feel “blah” it’s too easy to keep feeling that way.

Finally, I need to find joy every day. Whether it be ten minutes of listening to Yo-Yo Ma or taking a nap. Whatever it may be, I need it and I am not going to skip it because something else has to be done. So there.

As for today, I don’t feel all that great. I know! I am laughing because my first week to refocus and I wake up feeling lousy. I can’t tell if I am coming down with something or not but I poured myself a much-needed cup of coffee and now I am debating whether or not to go to church. No one wants to go with me. I may just go by myself.

This week will be a little crazy as the other two summer school classes The Teen is taking start this week. Now he is in a total of three classes and it all involves some planning in getting him to and  from class, etc. Hope it all goes smoothly.

The Girl’s summer camp goes to Knott’s Berry Farm this week. Just two weeks of camp and she is already tan and happy. That’s how I like her.

What am I reading?

I am still reading The Three and The Goldfinch and I added We Were Liars since everyone was talking about it. Tomorrow I am going to talk about my reading plans for the summer. I’ve changed my plans a little bit and I am looking forward to the change.

What am I cooking?

Last night I made garlic shrimp over gluten-free pasta which was totally thrown together last-minute and turned out great. Today? I have no appetite. No cravings. Nothing. I have no idea what to eat and the cupboards are bare. I have NO desire to go to the market either so not sure how we’ll fare for the day.

What am I watching?

The Girl and I started up with Lost again. We are on episode 22 of season one. How many episodes are there? Lordy! Claire just had her baby. I hope to finish out the season today.

I am also catching-up on my old movie DVR stash that I have going. Yesterday I watched Come September with Rock Hudson, Gina Lollobrigida, Sandra Dee and Bobby Darin and surprisingly, both The Girl and Teen plopped down to watch it with me. Today, I hope to see April in Paris with my favorite, Doris Day.

What are you doing today? Going anywhere fun? Reading anything really good that I need to know about?

I really do love my weekends.

Friday night, since my kids are not in the The Wizard of Oz this time, we actually got to sit down like real theater patrons and enjoy the show. I always enjoy the show but there is a certain level of panicky “something” going on when your kids are IN the show. Plus, all those hours of working backstage means that you can tell right off the bat if something is amiss. This time, I went into it totally clueless and it was nice.

That said, Grease is just around the corner. We had to find a 50’s prom dress for The Girl and after hitting THREE second-hand shops, I think we found something but she doesn’t like it. Says it’s too babyish but hey…the 50s dresses that I have seen are on the modest side. Plus, she is only ten but playing a teen. What kind of dresses does she think will fit her anyway?

Oh, and then right after seeing Wizard she asked to do Annie. Sigh. Registration is this week and auditions take place Theaterin September. It’s hard for me to think that far ahead but I know it will be here before I know it.

In other news, The Teen was baptized. Nothing can be easy in our family so he is now a member of one church and we are members of another. It was actually a very nice experience. He has some very good people watching over him in the church so I trust that he will be okay. That’s really all I can do at this point.

This morning we went to our church and he went to his, we ran errands and now we are cleaning. Fun!

What am I reading?

Yep. The Goldfinch. Just one of three books I am reading but because it’s a book club book, I am giving it priority right now. Although the story is interesting, I am wondering why it takes so many pages to tell it. I am reading it on my Kindle and I swear, it is stuck at the 7% mark.

What am I cooking?

I am not cooking anything. The Teen is going to see The Wizard of Oz again. This time, to see the opposite cast.  The Girl is not feeling well and doesn’t seem to have an appetite for anything and although I tried to tempt her with tea and  my special cinnamon toast, she turned it down. That is not a good sign. She started summer day camp last week. I am sure she is adjusting to all of the new kid germs she’s been introduced to. How wonderful!

What am I watching?

Not a thing. I am having one of those days where silence is preferred over noise of any kind. In fact, I may take a nap, although it’s getting a little late in the day for it.

What are you doing? Are you reading anything really, really good that I need to know about? I feel like starting The Three but I am no sure I can keep my eyes open. Yes, maybe I will take that nap after all.