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Sunday Matters: Small Changes

Sunday Matters

Yep. Coming to you a little late. Again. We’ve been having a heat wave and after church and an ice-cold Acai bowl, I spent a good hour looking for my prescription eye drops, prepping dinner and lunches for the week and the day slipped past me.

Clean Lunches

What you see above is the base for what I’ve been eating this past week and what I plan to eat this week. I have Tilapia and chicken to place and top. After a week of clean eating, I’ve lost seven pounds.

I don’t think it’s so much what I am eating, because  I often eat like this but it’s the fact that I’ve pretty much cut out salt. After my earlier meltdown, I’ve been focusing more on lowering the BP so since salt has always been my vice, I am kicking it out of my diet.

Right Now:

I just found those eye drops I was looking for. Whew. I thought I was losing my mind.

After this post, I hope to sit down and read for a bit. May not happen though until after dinner.

This Week:

This week is just going to be one of those weeks. I have something I am working on at work that might take a little bit of time,  and I have two Back to School nights to attend. I will be missing book club this week because of one of those nights but both kids will be performing so I’ve gotta go.

Reading:

I am reading Villa America, a novelization of the Murphy family, who happened to be the subject for Tender is the Night. I am over 50% into it and it’s holding my attention but I am waiting to get past the war and into the meat of the book.

Watching:

Later tonight we will be watching Fear the Walking Dead. I thought the pilot last week was great. Good acting, compelling story line and it’s set in Los Angeles. It’s the perfect kind of TV for me right now.

Making:

Tonight we are grilling chicken, corn and roasting little red potatoes. There will be La Brea Bakery rolls too.

Grateful for:

After my health outburst the other day, I’m grateful that there are some things that I can change. They may not fix the overall picture but there are still things I can do and I am grateful that I’ve got an opportunity to try.

What are you up to today? Anything fun?

I Got Mad The Other Day

Mad graphic.
I’ve been having a moment.  Well, a very long moment that started in January and has been building ever since. This isn’t book related so if you care to skip it, feel free.

Last Friday I did not have a good appointment with my Rheumatologist. My iron levels are leading me to a transfusion and my Vitamin D levels are so low that “heart event” was mentioned as was “stroke”.  To make matters worse, my BP was 182 and it continued to go up as my phone kept going off from work. It was unreal. It has never been that high and the nurse took it numerous times.

My. Health. Sucks.

I take iron. I take Vitamin D. I make good food choices about 75% of the time. I am just not absorbing nutrients and this is not something I can even control so it made me angry. I suspect that Celiac as well as Lupus have done their damage and now I am just a sieve for nutrients to pass through. Plus the shape of my red blood cells are wonky too.

After three solid days of wallowing in my misery and being angry as heck, I started to feel very small for focusing on all the negatives but sometimes you gotta get it out of your system. I haven’t quite gotten it all out yet but I am close.

This week I am making small changes to fix the 25% of my diet and habits that are not so great.

  • I haven’t had coffee in nearly a week but I don’t plan to give it up, I just can’t drink it right now with my BP so high.
  • I’ve cut my portions in half and added more fish to my diet. The family is already complaining about that because I managed to stink up the house cooking up my lunches.
  • I’m not exercising yet because with the low iron levels my energy levels can barely get me through the day right now but that is coming.
  • Trying to sleep more. Trying.
  • Removing sync on my work email account as soon as I leave the building.
  • Trying to get up every hour to walk around. I was sitting for very long periods of time… maybe three hours of intense focus before getting up. Not good.

Anyway, that’s where I’m at right now. By December, when I find out who my new doctor is, I am hoping to be down 20 lbs. Sounds like a lot but I’ve lost three since Friday so really only 17 more!

So that’s it. I got mad, pouted, cried a little, threw myself on top of my bed and groaned like Harry Burns did in the Casablanca scene of When Harry Met Sally. Whatever I can fix, I will and if I can’t I won’t.

I’m over it now.